Awakening

Jan. 23rd, 2010 05:36 pm
danu, mother goddess
This morning I awoke with a deep sense of movement in the Earth. Imbolg is coming, and whenever I explain this celebration to someone, I refer to it as "the quickening of the Earth".

The word "quick" originally meant "alive". Historically, quickening has sometimes been considered to be the beginning of the possession of "individual life" by the fetus. In pregnancy terms, it refers to feeling the movement of the fetus -- before ultrasound and modern medical advances, the first feeling of movement was the moment when one knew the baby was alive. This is quickening.

My perception of Imbolg is the time at which the Earth's womb begins to move, making ready to receive and grow the seeds that will form the year's harvest. It's a celebratory time, the beginning of the end of the dormant season of winter.

And so, this morning, I stepped out my door as usual to feel the weather, and I had a great sense of energy moving. Everything around felt as if it were unfurling. It was a beautiful sensation.
Art by Jim Fitzpatrick
"Your joy is your sorrow unmasked. And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears. And how else can it be? The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain. ...

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful, look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."

But I say unto you, they are inseparable. Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed. Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy. Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced. When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall."

So here is to being filled, my friends. ♥

my pets

Dec. 17th, 2009 05:42 pm
wreath by rocks
Awful things have been happening in Pet Land. First, we finally moved the cats -- Inky & Bast -- over to the house with the dogs. Things were actually going okay, everyone was ignoring each other, and Bast was up to his old hiding tricks. He gave me a few scares where I couldn't find him, but I ended up finding him behind the stove, in the closet, or behind the washing machine... so when I didn't see him for a few days, I didn't get too worried this time. I thought surely he must just be hiding again! After not seeing him for about three days, I got more worried, and starting looking around. Closet? Nope. Behind the stove? Nope. Under the sofa? Nope. Behind the washer? Nope. In the cabinets? Nope.

I've searched this whole house high and low and moved furniture around and everything, but I can't find him. It's been now a week or two since I've seen him, and the only thing that I can think of is that he went out the dog door in the back and ran away. I'm devastated. He was an adopted kitty, and now there he is, back on the streets. He was wearing a collar and tags with my phone number on them, but he is so shy I doubt anyone would catch him. And even if they did, there's no guarantee they'd call. So I'm sad to say it, but I think Bast is gone. :(

On top of all that, something else awful happened this week. My other cat, Inky, (who I've had a while, some of you remember maybe) has started sticking out his tongue all the time and drooling this viscous, thick, foul-smelling drool. I've been meaning to take him to the vet but, quite frankly, I haven't had the money as I've been dealing with paying my own medical bills recently. The drool got worse and worse, and I noticed he was getting sores at the edges of his mouth, so I pulled all my money out of my savings and looked up vets. I took him to the vet hospital in Petsmart, and it turns out his mouth is infected -- badly. This was this past Monday. The vet wanted to do a sedated teeth cleaning to get a better look in his mouth, but she estimated that at least some teeth would have to come out based on our basic consultation appointment.

The estimate they gave me was multiple hundreds of dollars. I just sort of, well, started crying. I don't have hundreds of dollars, and this place doesn't offer payment plan options. That vet place does offer a coverage plan, of sorts -- it's not insurance, it's basically where you pay about 30$/month for preventative care. If I signed up for a year of that plan that day, then the teeth cleaning would at least be covered, and it would come out cheaper at the moment. I went ahead and did the plan, so that I could get him in for the teeth cleaning. We were sent home with antibiotics for the cat and an appointment for Wednesday.

So I took him back Wednesday morning for cleaning and the vet called me to say that all the teeth in his whole mouth are rotten but the canines. She says half of his teeth have already fallen out by themselves. The ones that are left, though, are so infected that roots are exposed so that is why he is so painful. She said she has to pull them all. So I said, okay, because what else can I do? I figured I would get on my knees and beg about the money if I had to. The teeth had to come out for my kitty to get better and I just, I felt like the worst mommy ever that I wasn't able to take him earlier. I feel like this is all my fault and I've been depressed about it for the past two days. She says, "we'll work something out" about the payment, and asks me if I am okay. Later she calls to tell me she took all the teeth but his canines, which still are okay.

When I went back to pick him up, the bill was.... $75.

She didn't even charge me for more than one tooth extraction. I got teary-eyed when I saw the bill at the counter -- after I paid the vet tech girl went back to get him and then came out and said the vet wanted to bring him out herself.

When she came out to bring him to me she was so sweet, and told me what we had to do to take care of him, and I thanked her profusely. Not profusely enough. I just can't believe it. I started crying a little again (read: I am seriously a crybaby), and she was like, don't cry! But I couldn't help it. I was just so overwhelmed.

I was so grateful and I am trying to think of a good way to thank her when I take him back in ten days for a follow-up.
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I didn't do much of anything last year for Yule -- it was a hard time for me, emotionally, and I had a lot going on. So this year I feel super excited about it for some reason!

Today I went out with a friend and wildharvested cedar, holly, pinecones, and various other wintery foliage. I'm using it to decorate! This photo is of the main altar, of which I am actually quite proud. I think it looks beautiful. I have also decorated the ancestors' space and dedicated a spot on the mantle to the plants of winter, as well. It was really fun frolicking about to find this stuff; my friend and I had a lovely day of it.

Mr is going to celebrate the Solstice with me as well this year, which is terribly exciting as he is not really a very celebratory person. I'm planning to write a nice ritual for us -- I just can't contain my excitement! Yay! I've also this week mixed up a large mason jar of mulling spices, for me to use throughout the winter with ciders and wines.

My dry mix includes...:
  • clove, whole
  • allspice berry, whole
  • cinnamon stick, whole
  • orange peel
  • black peppercorns, whole
  • cardamom pods
I've got a large pot simmering on the stove presently. We'll see how it comes out!
edit: Mmmm. It came out nice and spicy! Gorgeous.
Brigid the Healer


Yesterday afternoon's project was time consuming but something I'd never done before: making an ointment! My sister helped me, doing the hard part -- chopping the wax!

The recipe comes from Homemade: How to Make Hundreds of Everyday Products Fast, Fresh, and More Naturally. It was pretty easy to follow, despite the fact that I don't have a double boiler and had to improvise!

It called for light olive oil, fresh calendula (marigold) petals, beeswax, and vitamin E oil. I wanted to find beeswax in granules, but the store only had blocks, so the most ridiculous part of the whole affair was attempting to chop bits off the large block of wax. Next time I need beeswax, I am definitely going to look until I can find it already chopped or in granules. We have marigolds growing in front of our house, so I just went out and cut blossoms off for use in this ointment.

Basically we put the olive oil and the calendula petals in a double boiler for two hours. Following that the liquid is strained, returned to heat, and the beeswax added. Once it's all liquid you take it off the heat and beat it until it becomes thick and creamy, at which point you squish a capsule of vitamin E into it as a preservative and then pour or spoon the mixture into whatever container you're going to keep it in. Pretty easy!

I'm very excited to have made my own ointment. I definitely need to purchase a double boiler, and probably a few things like spoons and such for use only in making medicinal things. I can't wait to experiment further! Next up I plan to try a different all-purpose formula listed in the book.
girl in witch garb walking in autumn
So our roommate is moving out. It all transpired very suddenly, and he did not inform us of his intentions to move until he had already signed a lease for a place. Monetarily we are going to be fine, but he (the roommate) sent me a facebook message recently saying he wishes to discuss something privately with me. The way he framed this message makes it sound like he's trying to drive a wedge between Mr Zombi & I. He has also previously said that he wishes he were my Mr instead of, well, Mr Zombi. That was a long time ago and I'd forgotten about it and dismissed it as nothing, but this whole business has reminded me of it.With that backstory, once he moves out I'd like to give that bedroom a really good cleansing/banishing. He is also a practitioner and I'm uncertain as to what kind of spellwork or so he has done in that room, so I need something that will also remove or break down work cast by another on a place.

I have a few 'normal' cleansing things I do whenever I move, but I've never had reason to believe that another practitioner might be doing any workings against me. I'm getting the feeling -- you know, the FEELING -- that there is some kind of undercurrent of resentment in the roommate, and I want to make sure I protect our home once he is gone. I really don't know if he would work AGAINST me, but I feel like it'd be a good idea to make sure we are protected. Most protection work I have done has not had a specific target that I am protecting from, so.
sailor moon's michiru manga reads "share happiness"
I have to tell you, I dread shopping for Mr Zombi. It's not because he doesn't like things -- he loves lots of things! It's mostly because I always stress out about my presents needing to be perfect. He never tells me what he wants, so I have to guess. I think he thinks that makes it more fun, but for me, it just makes it super stressful. In any case, I always shop for him at the last minute because I agonize in my head about what to get, what to get, what to get until I look up and it's TIME TO GET SOMETHING NOW. Last year for his birthday I bought him a small singing bowl from India, and for Christmas among other small things -- like a packet of incense and a wee lucky Buddha -- I purchased a small sculpture, made by artisans from the Shona tribes of Zimbabwe. It is really beautiful and it went well with other African art he had, and I was really proud of myself. I've been trying to figure out how on Earth I could top that, but so far I came up blank.

In any case, his birthday is Friday, so it's obvious that I'm running behind. It's Wednesday, for goodness' sake!
I don't think what I purchased today will come in the mail on time, but should come soon. It will definitely be here before we leave for New Orleans, so it's all good, I think.

This year I bought him a hand-carved gourd, fair-trade imported from Peru. In Andean culture, gourd carving is a tradition handed down generation aftean example picture from the seller of a gourdr generation and a tool to record traditions, rituals, myths and celebrations. This artform is not only beautiful but also a form of storytelling -- it has been used in communities to record Andean celebrations, oral traditions, myths, rituals, and weddings. Archeologists in Peru have discovered gourds carved as much as 4,000 years ago! With a fascinating history and tradition like this behind it, I thought this gift would be a perfect choice. Mr Zombi loves learning about other cultures and collecting various kinds of art. He already has many African carved masks and statuary, but he doesn't have anything like this.

I really enjoy buying things from the Rainforest Site because not only do they often have such interesting and diverse things available, but they also donate the proceedings from their sales to efforts to save acres in the rainforests. This land preservation is paid for by site sponsors and carried out by The Nature Conservancy, The Rainforest Conservation Fund, The World Parks Endowment, and Rainforest2Reef. These organizations work to preserve rainforest land in Ecuador, Mexico, Peru, Paraguay and other locations worldwide. Purchasing this present for Mr Zombi will give or help 2290.0 sq. ft. of land. It's something I can feel good about giving, and it's a detail I know he'll appreciate.
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So my fiancé and I will be headed to New Orleans for Samhain this year. I'm terribly excited as I've never been to this fascinating city, and I can't possibly think of a better time to go to the home of New Orleans Vodou than Samhain!

We definitely plan to go to the New Orleans Historic Voodoo Museum. I'm very excited about that -- I'm hoping it will be a really nice presentation of vodou ritual and such. They do allow photography in the museum, too, so hopefully I'll be able to get some nice photos! I'm especially interested to see what they have to say about Marie LaVeau, the Voodoo Queen. She had a great following in New Orleans, and indeed, people of the past often came to see her and to participate in her rites. It is said she could keep anyone from harm, and she could do anything to anyone. She blended Catholicism with vodou, adding the statues of saints, incenses, and holy water to her rites. This is how many people still practice vodou in New Orleans today -- as a syncretism of Haitian vodou and Roman Catholic religion. Known as the Voodoo Queen, Marie LaVeau is still said to walk the streets of New Orleans, and her gravesite is a common place for visitors to come to seek her aid. I am planning also to visit her grave and leave an offering for her.

It is a long-standing tradition that people should go to the grave of the Voodoo Queen and offer her something or ask for a wish to be granted. Often young women come to this place to petition for a husband. There is a tradition of drawing three X signs in red brick dust on the side of the tomb and asking for your wish, though I have also heard that this can be considered disrespectful and defacement of the tomb. I plan to bring an offering and turn around and clap three times, as that is another similar tradition. I will be asking Mme LaVeau for her favour, as well as for a secret desire I shall reveal to no-one but her.

We're wanting to go on some kind of haunted history tour while we're there, as well! It seems there are so many to choose from -- cemetary tours, walking historical tours, all kinds. We plan to just see what looks the most interesting when we arrive and play it by ear.

Of course I'll be doing witchy shopping while I'm down in New Orleans, as well. It's no secret that I am not a Wiccan-rede following witch; I require at times supplies and materials for work that's definitely not of a peaceful nature. The pagan/witchy shops around my city here all stock only peaceful types of items -- not a hexing material in sight! Therefore if I need something I can't get ahold of, I usually have to turn to the internet to get it. I'm hoping New Orleans can stock me up with a few things while I'm there so I don't have to pay shipping costs. A friend of mine, the closest thing I have to a covenmate, has also given me a list of things she'd like me to try and find while I'm down there for her own purposes. Hopefully it will be a fruitful trip!
Brigid the Healer
With flu season upon us and the swine flu scares that have been going on, a lot of people are looking for things they can do to help prevent getting sick. There are a number of nutrients that are fundamental to immunity. Vitamin C and its synergistic antioxidants like vitamin E, NAC, selenium, and beta carotene are just a few. Others include zinc and vitamin D. Even friendly flora that helps maintain digestive competence is plain common sense. And thankfully, there are many other nutrients that can help your immune system in times of need. No nutrient guarantees protection from Swine flu or any other illness. On the other hand, lacking immune support nutrients is like going into battle with a neon target on your forehead.

This is a photo of some of the things I keep at home during this time of year to help me fight off seasonal colds, influenza, and other wintery ailments. The tea packets pictured are by the company Yogi Tea. Here's a rundown of the ones I'm using this time of year...

Cold Season - A blend of ginger and other herbs supports nasal and bronchial function, while eucalyptus aids free breathing.
Breathe Deep - This tea contains thyme, eucalyptus and other herbs that support the mucous membranes.
Echinacea Immune Support - Three varieties of echinacea give a full range of herbal immune system support. Astragalus and organic mullein aid respiratory function.
Throat Comfort - People at work ask me if I have a packet of this with me all the time! Contains slippery elm bark and mullein help relieve minor irritation.

I'm also taking two packets of Emergen-C every morning. I've been doing this for years and I have to say, it's helped a lot! Each packet contains 1,000mg of vitamin C, as well as a host of other great vitamins including B1, B2, B6 and B12.

Also pictured are extra supplements of vitamin D and vitamin B12, along with a bottle of elderberry syrup. Research shows that beginning elderberry supplementation as soon as flu symptoms appear can provide significant defense.
danu, mother goddess
Mr Zombi has on the DVD the National Geographic series called "Taboo". One of the discs explores religions, with separate sections on witchcraft and vodou. It's really fascinating, though they spend a lot more time on the hexing than the healing when talking about witchcraft.

The section on vodou & santeria was really wonderful. The program discussed lots of things but focused a lot on the difference between divinity that is believed in versus divinity that is seen -- in this case, they were discussing the spirit possession that is common in vodou. Have any of you ever seen this program? I really enjoyed it!
samhain; the gates are open candle

Main Altar Top
Originally uploaded by caitrionaoconaill
I finally got around to decorating my altars & spaces with autumn-y things. I have a strange attachment to maize; I really, seriously love it, so I figured it would be a nice & colourful choice to have sitting about. This photo is of the "main" altar-y space, where typically I do offerings and whatnot.

I also messed about with my ancestor space but unfortunately, I had a bit of an accident with candle wax, so I need to give it a good cleaning as soon as I figure out how to get candle wax out of fabric. Oops!

Here is a view of the space from further away -- and here's the best view of the ancestor space I have for now. Darn that candle wax! Speaking of, it's time for me to say daily prayers & give libation. That's pretty much what I've been up to lately, that & I have a friend discussing a possible curse with me. We've not decided yet how to proceed -- tarot readings are in order.
shift and feminine room

roots
Originally uploaded by caitrionaoconaill
Re-did my roots again, this time with a different ratio of henna to cassia. I was using a 50/50 mix, and I haven't been too satisfied with the results on the virgin/undamaged roots that come in. So this time we mixed the last of my 50/50 with my sister's all-henna mix and the results are...

perfect!

So I'm going to mix something more like a 70/30 henna/cassia next time I mix it up. The downside is that I was using leftovers so I don't know an exact ratio, so I have to guess. I'll be mixing up smaller quantities until I figure out the exact ratio to get this colour, but I think 70/30 is going to be pretty darn close. I'm really happy with it! Success is mine.
lots of witchy bits and bats
Not really doing much at the moment, mostly just school. Mr Zombi and I will be spending Samhain in New Orleans, so I'm not even really planning for Samhain.

I did receive the Deviant Moon tarot deck in the mail recently -- it's gorgeous. I can't wait to start working with it! The images are very interesting and dark.
apples, reads Mabon
October: A Sonnet
William Cullen Bryant

"Ay, thou art welcome, heaven’s delicious breath,
When woods begin to wear the crimson leaf,
And suns grow meek, and the meek suns grow brief,
And the year smiles as it draws near its death.
Wind of the sunny south! oh still delay
In the gay woods and in the golden air,
Like to a good old age released from care,
Journeying, in long serenity, away.
In such a bright, late quiet, would that I
Might wear out life like thee, mid bowers and brooks,
And, dearer yet, the sunshine of kind looks,
And music of kind voices ever nigh;
And when my last sand twinkled in the glass,
Pass silently from men, as thou dost pass."


blessed Mabon/Autumnal Equinox! Tonight I believe the closest thing I have to a coven-mate and I will be having a small celebration, nothing much, to mark the day.
eggs and toast and cofee
Apparently, according to Mr Zombi, I was talking in my sleep about how someone was going to take my red blanket from me and I really didn't want them to. I was, he says, VERY upset about this.

I do not remember this dream at all. O_o

Holy Water

Sep. 10th, 2009 11:31 am
apples, reads Mabon
I have to be honest with you -- I get holy water from the Roman Catholic church. Prior to my pagan path, I was Roman Catholic, and I still find many things about Catholicism to be extremely evocative and beautiful. For a time, I termed myself a "Christian witch", preferring to look at Mary as a Goddess figure while holding on to the remnants of my Christian faith.

A good many of my clients are Christian, and when I do house blessings for them, I try to keep it was close to their belief systems as possible. For this, I use the holy water from the church. I also use it in some hoodoo workings, as a lot of hoodoo traditions make use of various Christian things like psalms, archangel images, and Christian scripture. For me, this incorporation of Christianity is a way of honoring my ancestors, almost all of whom were very strongly Christian. While the rest of it is merely the methods of folk magic, that part, to me, is what keeps it from being uncomfortable, or from not jiving with my beliefs.

Of course, I also make "holy water" of my own, typically by praying over and blessing it in various ways, and leaving it in the light of the sun or moon for however many cycles, and such. I've two blue bottles of water sitting in windowsills at the house for this very reason. But I do still have use for the Christian holy water.
Art by Jim Fitzpatrick
Tealights are great because their burning time is relatively short, they are easy to find, and they're inexpensive. They are also useful if you want to do the same spell for several days in a row, but you're a busy person and you don't want to leave a burning candle unattended.

When I do work, whether it's for myself or for a client, tealight petition magic is often one of the first ways I consider when thinking about the best way to get something done. You can add whatever type of herb or oil to a tealight, and when it burns out it seals inside itself all the material, making it easy to dispose of. All that's necessary for simple tealight petition work are:
  • a tealight
  • something to burn it in
  • a piece of paper & a pen
  • herbs or oil, etc of your choice
  • a little bit of time
That's it! I usually burn my tealights in a glass holder meant for a votive candle, because I feel pretty good about leaving the little candle burning down in the bottom of a big glass cup.

First and foremost, I gather my materials together. If I need to reference what herbs are best for what purpose, I usually turn to Cat Yronwode's Hoodoo Herb & Root Magic book, but you can use a simple google search to find that kind of information if you need it, too. I take the little wax candle out of its metal cup, setting it to the side.

Once I've made sure I have what I need, I'll take a minute to sit down and write out what it is I'm after. A little piece of paper is best, because you're going to be folding it up and sticking it under the candle while it burns. An example of this: Let's say I want to do well in my studies. I'll write my full name on my little piece of paper, and then I'll turn it 90 degrees and write what I want over the top of it, covering my name with my desire. So I'd write "first name middle name last name", turn the paper 90 degrees, and then write something like, "Focus & understanding in my studies -- the ability to retain what I learn", or somesuch. I'll fold this up and stick it in the bottom of the little metal cup. Sometimes this doesn't work out because the paper is too big and takes up too much space in my cup -- that's okay. If you don't want to put the paper down into the cup, just set it to the side. You can burn it in the flame later.

That done, I'll put a pinch of herb into the bottom of the cup on top of the paper. For my examples, I'm going to mention herbs that are commonly found in kitchens. Since I'm after success in this example, I'll put a pinch of allspice in my cup, along with a little basil. Both those, by the way, are also useful in matters of luck and money. A bit of cinnamon helps speed my luck along and provide a little protection, and mint can be used for mental strength and clarity. Obviously, the herbs you use will vary by your purpose.

You don't have to anoint the candle with oil, but I like to. We call this "dressing" the candle, by the way. Because I make my own Has no Hanna, I'd use that for this example -- all purpose luck, etc -- it would be a good choice. You can experiment with oil making or look around online or in your city for pagan shops that sell oils. I tend to apply the oil with one fingertip to a tealight, and I start with top, to which I apply the oil in a clockwise fashion. Tealights are so small that I don't really bother with more ceremonial or ritualistic ways of dressing them, but if you're interested in knowing how I dress larger candles, feel free to ask. Once the top is dressed, I'll do the same thing around the sides of the candle, and then to the bottom. As you do this, concentrate on what it is you want. This should be a thoughtful process.

When the candle is dressed with oil, I usually tip it on its side in the cup and roll its edge in whatever herbs are inside. This prevents mess, and the oil will help powdered herbs and such stick to the wax of the candle. Once I've done that, I'll pop the tealight back into its metal cup, and put it into the holder I'm using the burn it. If the paper is inside, we're pretty much done -- just pause, say out loud whatever it is you want, add a little prayer if you believe in deities and want their assistance, and light the candle! Let it burn itself out undisturbed.

If your paper is not in the little metal cup, go ahead and light your candle and stick it in the holder. Now take your paper and once again, say out loud whatever it is you want. We say things aloud to "announce" them to the universe, or to make them more "real". Once you've said your piece, hold the corner of the paper to the candle's flame. Allow the whole paper to be consumed by the fire in whatever manner is the safest and most appropriate to you. That done, let the candle burn itself out.
irish recon
I don't know about you, but something I often have a hard time with is self doubt. Especially when it comes to tasks that I perceive to be insurmountable, or something I know I'm not "good at". I get very down on myself, and I have a tendency to think negatively. As I strive to change my life from within and be a 'better person', something I'm working towards is transitioning this way of negative self-talking out of my life. So today, in light of my recent algebraical meltdown, I did a small Transitioning ritual.

In case you're wondering what's in this little photo, here's a bit of a guide.

* an Evil Eye votive for protection and safe space
* my standby Feminine Energies votive because for me it is the most grounding in myself, and the one I use most often with my affirmations
* one Mint votive because of mint's mental energy properties -- clarity, focus,
* some Lavender incense to soothe the doubt
* a Chilean good luck pig -- this was given to me by Mr Zombi, so he is both a Good Luck charm and a reminder that I have the support and love of someone whom I equally support and love. It's a good thing to be reminded of sometimes.
* clear quartz, a stone of clarity which dispels negativity and clears away negative energy
* selenite, the sword of awareness. useful for cutting through assumptions and promoting re-connection.

and some various flowers & herbs that we grew this year, a reminder of productivity and achievement.
Art by Jim Fitzpatrick
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